Why Are You Becoming a Villain Again?

oo, made a choice for the family.

 

Though, that didn’t mean that the frustration vanished.
And in such frustration, I spat a lot of words to myself.

 

“I resent being born as a commoner.”

 

It was the first time I showed any weakness to the twins.

 

Asena and Keirsey simultaneously had tears in their eyes at seeing my state.

 

But I couldn't comfort them.
For now, I needed some alone time.
The fact that I would have to remove Pryster from my name was too big of a shock for me.

 

I opened the door of the running carriage, and a guard looked at me in surprise.

 

“Young Lord, may I help you?”

 

“Is there a free horse?”

 

“There is!”

 

“Prepare for me.”

 

Then, I jumped out of the wagon.

 

Other knights hurriedly slowed down and tried to help me, but I signaled them to go on.

 

Asena and Keirsey looked at me from the carriage, but I did not look back.

 

The wagon carrying them was getting farther and farther away.

 

If I talked to Asena now, it seemed like I would only get angrier.
I only felt sorry for Keirsey, whom I had to leave alone with Asena.

 

But it couldn't be helped.
I needed some alone time to get rid of my feelings.

 

Soon after, a guard appeared with his horse.

 

I got on the horse and pondered what Asena had just said to me.

 

It seemed more shocking the more I thought about it, but unfortunately, it wasn’t something I, who was born as a commoner, could refute.

 

In this worldview, the class system was that strict.

 

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Asena looked out of the window blankly.
Even for the sake of the future, she didn’t want to offend Cayden that much.

 

Still, Asena knew, it was a hill she had to climb someday.

 

Now, the die was already cast, and she couldn't go back.

 

It’s been years since she wanted to say this.
Ever since becoming the head of state, she'd been preparing herself.
In the meantime, she had been waiting only for the right moment.

 

But now that they had to go to the academy, she couldn’t put it off any longer.

 

Cayden Pryster had to remove the Pryster surname.

 

He didn’t seem to accept it yet… But it had to be said.

 

Even though Cayden was angry, he calmed his anger when she said ‘for the future’.

 

He seemed to think about the future of the ‘family’.
However, Asena’s true intentions were different.

 

During her reign, she had no desire to make the family any stronger.

 

It was enough for the family to be able to protect their family members and their subordinates.

 

She didn’t want to take his surname away for such a grand reason: for the sake of the family.
Rather, it was for a selfish, personal, and dark reason.

 

What she thought was the future of ‘she’ and ‘Cayden’.

 

As the head of the household, she sacrificed a lot and gave up a lot of dreams, but this time, she wanted to be greedy.

 

In the past, Asena thought that Cayden would be the head of the household, but he didn’t.

 

Thankfully, she was very fortunate that she became the head of the house, not Kersey.

 

In this way, she would be able to use the power of her position to make her dreams come true, and she had only one dream.

 

She wanted to spend the rest of her life with Cayden.

 

For her, it was impossible to imagine a life without him.

 

But she found, how unstable her relationship with Cayden was; she and Cayden were siblings.

 

If they were able to spend the rest of their lives together through this relationship, she would probably have been satisfied with it.

 

However, the relationship between siblings was an unstable relationship that could not cross certain boundaries from the moment they became adults.

 

So, the ties between siblings were to be cut with one’s own hands, and a new relationship was needed.

 

The method she found was marriage.

 

The mere fact of being able to live with him didn’t lead to the idea of marriage.
Perhaps, all of this was Asena’s excuse.

 

She just wanted to leave everything else behind and be the most precious person for Cayden.

 

She always wanted her to be his number one priority, and she wanted to take all the love he could give.

 

Asena realized her feelings for Cayden from an early age.

 

She couldn’t help it.

 

Cayden was the person who shook her heart that she thought would never move.

 

Cayden was the person who became her family when she thought she was alone.

 

He was the only one who took care of her when she was just a spoiled brat and no one could handle her tantrums.

 

No matter how irritated she was, he came to her with a smile, complimented her, and poured all the love.

 

At first, she wanted to know how could he do that even though they were strangers.
But such doubts melted because of Cayden's efforts.
Now, it didn’t matter why.

 

With him, all of Asena's painful thoughts ceased to arise.
He lifted her again.

 

She couldn’t even imagine what kind of person she would be without Cayden.

 

He was like a jewel, and it was a blessing that only she and Keirsey knew about him.

 

Even as they got older, he was the same.
Whenever she was having a hard time, he always came to her and encouraged her.
When she was bored, he played with her and filled her head with joy.
When she was afraid, he was there.

 

He was the person Asena could not ignore.
She couldn’t help but love him.
There was no other option.

 

But she didn’t know until then what kind of love it was.
She only vaguely felt it.

 

Even though she loved her father, she loved her mother, she loved Keirsey and all her family, and she always felt a special love towards Cayden.

 

At first, she thought it was just because Cayden was a new family member.
So she thought her love would clearly be a little different.

 

But the older she got, both physically and mentally, the more concrete her feelings became.

 

If it was just the family love, only hearing his voice would not make her day happy.
She wouldn't have constant thoughts about him swi rling in her head.

 

… And she wouldn’t want to go to him every night to kiss him.

 

She wouldn't imagine having a child with him, and she wouldn't get hot at night while thinking about him.

 

It had been a long time since she let go of the guilt that she shouldn't have such thoughts.
They were not blood-related, anyway.

 

Although they grew up like siblings, she never had familial love for him.

 

Cayden had the same 'Pryster' last name, but for her, they were more of childhood friends than siblings.

 

But the surname Pryster was always blocking her.
The name she was always proud of was her biggest obstacle.

 

So the name must be removed.
Because they couldn't marry if they both had the same 'Pryster' surname.

 

…and today, finally, she spat those words out.

 

Cayden was furious.
She had never seen him so angry before.

 

Hundreds of times she had the desire to return to a position where she was not hated again.
But she had to think about the future with him.

 

If she could not endure this ordeal, it was as if cutting their future with her own hand.

 

When she imagined Cayden loving her more than now and whispering loving words to her, she was able to endure it.
Her heart began pounding like it was going to explode when she thought about such a future with Cayden.

 

She, who was insensitive to emotional changes, never thought that there would be something so heart-pounding.

 

What would Cayden think if he found out about this greedy heart?

 

Would he be shocked, or would he be scared?

 

… Hence, it was a heart that could not be revealed yet.

 

Keirsey also continued to express dissatisfaction with her choice.
But ignoring her was not difficult for Asena.

 

Except for Cayden, the feelings of other people didn’t matter that much.

 

But now, Asena was more worried about how to ease Cayden's anger.

 

She stared blankly out of the window, hiding countless thoughts under a cold face.