My Mate, My Hate

as we talk, ” he says and raises a brow at me. I try to shake off the pang of guilt. I might have ruined the peace. It really sucks being the reason my brother has to face Alpha Logan to negotiate God knows what terms he wants. He said he didn want to interfere with the gold. As of now, he added. Which means that he is interested in the gold but he won use it as a ransom.

”Don begin with me, Jex. I know this is all my fault and I am already feeling worse than anyone else here. You were right, I know but what can I do about it now, ” I tell him. I am starting to think that this is all fates doing that I had to meet my mate in this kind of way. Meeting your mate is supposed to be the happiest moment of a wolfs life, but saying my meeting was hideous would be an understatement.

”I don want to blame you because I think it was my fault that I let you convince me to cross the Misty river. Carl was so furious with me, you know. He trusted me to protect you and I failed, ” he says.

”I am so sorry, Jex. I promise I will make it up to you when we get back home, ” I tell him. I put on a huge smile, hoping to smooth off his gloom. He sighs heavily and folds his hands in front of his chest.

We are led downstairs to a room furnished with old fancy charm. I am captivated by the beauty of the room and the parts of the mansion I have been to. Well, except for the stone walled room that I woke up in.

”You will wait in here while Alpha proceeds with his meeting, ” the man that brought us in tells us and then exits, closing the door behind him.

I walk around the room, looking around in wonder, amazed by what I am seeing. Alpha Logan is the riches alpha amongst the five packs in the land. I had heard of his fancy mansion but this is my first time in it. All this will also be mine if I become his. Its too much!

Would be happy to know that I am his mate? Would he love me unconditionally? Would he even try to be romantic at all? I try to picture a romantic love strike Alpha Logan but I can . Its a total loss! This is not the kind of mate I had hoped to have. I wanted someone sweet, romantic, even though not that wealthy but at least kind, understanding, which Logan is not! Manly? Woa, hell yeah he is manly but he is none of the other things. I wonder how Jex or Carl would react to the information. Wondering how they would react gives me goosebumps.

”Do you want to talk about what happened when I was away? You look too thoughtful and I can guess its too unpleasant to think about, ” Jex says. I really don want to talk to anyone about it. Its already egregious enough that I know it.

I take my time admiring the large window and the curtains. I reach it and look through. The moon is going down into the woods. Its almost morning. The view from here is wow! I can the the surrounding mountains, mostly covered with woods.

”I woke up one of the rooms downstairs. I was told the Alpha wanted to meet me so I was given this dress. I was in my wolf form so I shifted and put it on, ” I tell him, unnecessarily adding the details so that I don leave him gap to doubt.

”I was led into his library, which you have also been to. Then he told me you had gone back home to inform Carl to come and save me. I insisted that he didn need to involve my brother that I can negotiate my way through this but he said I wouldn manage the terms he would want to set with me so he would prefer dragging my brother all the way from home, ” I add.

”Is it about the gold? ” he inquires.

”Thats what I thought, but he said its not. I completely have no idea what he wants, ” I respond.

”I hope he makes a sensible proposal. He is making too big a deal out such a small issue, ” Jex shakes his head.

After like an hour of impatient waiting, Carl comes into the room.

”We can go home now, ” he announces, but his face remains grim.

”What does he want? ” I ask dashing towards him.

”Lets talk at home, ” he responds coldly. He must be really mad at me. I nod silently and we are led out of the room. As we descend the stairs, I keep looking back up unconsciously, hoping to look at Logan one last time before I go. Each step out of the house is like a piercing to my wolf. I fight the urge to break loose and run back up to his library and surrender myself into his arms and let him mark me, own me.

As we head to the door, I resolve to look straight in front of me. I pray that I never come back here and hope never to see Logan ever again. My wolf wimps and curls in pain. I feel sick to the core having to hurt my wolf when I have just mate her. Its not my fault that our mate is the worst person on earth! If he cared, he would have at least let me go without worsening the issue. If he cared he wouldn have been greedy to ask for ransom. He is heartless greedy monster and I don want him to be my Mate! He would have at least come to say goodbye to me like a mate who gives a damn, but he obviously doesn ! One part of me says that maybe he doesn know that I am his mate but another part of me tells me that he is proud enough to not give a damn even if he knew!