Hellbound With You (WN)

Abi ’s eyes widened as she looked at Alex, utterly shocked again.

”W-what did he say? This was y-your plan? ” Abi stuttered, as her tears silently fell. ”Tell me, Alex… please tell me it ’s not true… ”

Alex finally averted his eyes. He looked down, hiding his eyes from her as he spoke. There was no more reason to hide his secrets. If he knew that Abi would come to know all his secrets in the worst possible way, he would ’ve told her all of it on that day she cried for him in the rain. But there was no use in looking back. The past couldn ’t be changed, not even by him.

”He ’s right. ” Alex started. ”The first time I saw you, I felt something I didn ’t understand. I didn ’t look into it any further. I put it down to momentary surprise because I was surprised by you, that first time we met. But again, the moment was fleeting. After I left, I never thought I would see you again so I didn ’t think anymore of it. ” Alex looked at her at this point and said, ”If you had only listened to me then… but you didn ’t. You came to me, you threw yourself at me and that strange feeling returned. It was then that I delved deeper into what this was and why. The first few days with you, I noticed that you were able to move me, sway my decisions despite centuries of callousness and coldness, and that made me wonder if I had finally found the person I ’ve been searching for, for so long.

Xavier is right. This was my plan, the same plan I had since I learned of the witch ’s words. It didn ’t change when I met you. I ’ve longed for death for so long and if my hunch was right, I would finally be able to breathe my last breath, to finally be free. How could I let that chance go, to let it slip between my fingers? I have lived for so long that I had forgotten what life was, what it meant to live. So if you were my only chance to end this hollow, cursed life, then I would take it. If I let you go now, I would live forever because this chance will never come again. That ’s why I planned all this. To bring you here in this room one day and hypnotize you before forcing you to kill me with this dagger. After my death, you would forget everything to do with me. You would forget it all and be able to live your life again in unknowing bliss. That was my plan, Abigail… ” Alex trailed off.